"I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault"
"Oh I'm not sorry for me, I'm sorry for the world. As a human in this place, as a representative thereof, I'm sorry. Sorry for the worlds pressures that put you in the place to make that no-win decision. Sorry for the worlds problems that added up to the situation you are in. Sorry that you are powerless in some situations. Sorry that you got unlucky too many times in a row and had to crash and burn. Sorry that you now have to reteach yourself. Sorry that you are the student and the teacher, the marble and the sculptor. Sorry that you have to relearn what is real and who is real. Sorry that you didn't have good teachers, a good role model, or example. Sorry that you slipped through the cracks. Sorry that it hurts - body, soul and mind.
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Cry if you have to. Cry if it helps. I'll say 'dont cry' if you think that'll help. But don't hold it back, don't hold it in. Cry and accept, cry and give in.
Cry for what's lost, grieve the immutable past.
Hope for what's coming, try for your best. Plant the seeds - not everything is solved in a day, not anything is solved with a thought or a book or a decision. Plant the seed you need tomorrow for the shade to come in the unknowable future.
I'm sorry. Will you forgive me? We can move on together. Please, just take my hand."