So much momentum carries the status-quo bubble one resides in. To change is to challenge the powers that carried you this far.
How can you determine what is an outlying non-repeated characteristic of your circumstance? What is an excusable mistake? When does the scale tip and granting forgiveness becomes a weakness, instead of a strength?
What kind of patterns is the machine between your ears detecting? Are the patterns a characteristic of the system you occupy healthy? Are there tragedies that permeate? Are there tragedies that repeat?
Is the machine built up to detect these subtleties at all?
Tragedy is endemic to the human condition, but are the tragedies granting insight and inspiration and advising the next tragedy? So the fall may slow. Because it's coming.
Upon reflection, is the pattern of tragedy unmitigated?
How much more can you take? How much more will you take anyways?
How much imbalance can love buy?
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For extra credit answer the questions again on a separate sheet of paper from the human species' point of view.
Show your work. One word answers will be an implicit acceptance of a 🚣 sticker on your report card. On a scale of one to zero, are you happy?